Intoxicated

2005-11-21T22:38:00.000-08:00

as much as I love tis blog (cos of the strawberry layout) =PpP ..I dun tink I'm going to blog here anymore..

2005-11-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

went to the doctor tis morning as I keep injuring myself in my sleep..he suggested bandaging my hands -_-

was bored so I took a couple of pictures at home..

haha..I look the same in every pic..makes me lose interest in taking anymore..

met my bf at Somerset..met him at 3 instead of 1.30 cos someone couldn't wake up..*ahem ahem* walked around a bit..we haven't been to town for ages! followed by dinner at..Galilee & Friends at Cine..the name is kinda screwed up..but the food really rocks.. =D n the price is so reasonable..wheeeee!

I miss my bf..though I just met him..about 3 hours ago? =( bleah..

I've just spent the past hour trying to get my navel piercing out..cos I just bought a new one..

cost me $12+..very cheap! kinda reminds me of candy though..

BUT..the screw of my current piercing refuses to come off..n it's kinda RED right now..damn! tink I gotta go to the shop n ask them to change it for me..

my current stud cost..$45..freaking expensive..n I dun like it! ahhhhhh..help! I wanna take it off! BOO.......

2005-11-03T13:20:00.000-08:00

GRRRRRRRR..I am angry..very very angry..my fucked up aunt just INVITED herself over to my house..her specific words.."I'm coming over now..I want to see ur room" WHO THE FUCK does she tink she is huh..wanna see my room..ASK..wad the hell..

stupid stupid shuckaroos..ALWAYS invading ppl's privacy..WAD THE HECK..SUPER UPSET right now..I DO NOT want to see her face..always makes inane comments..AS IF U'RE SO GREAT URSELF.. ))$%&$%! n asking me to do things for her..AM I UR SLAVE? like giving her student tuition..writing music BLAH BLAH BLAH..n SHE gets paid for it..*ROARS*

some ppl just don't understand we need FAMILY TIME..BASKET..

get LOST n leave me ALONE..haven't u done ENOUGH for the past few YEARS??!?! U RUINED MY LIFE U HOE..

2005-11-03T02:14:00.000-08:00

had 50 mins of school today -_- from 8-8.50 okay it could've been worse..so I should stop complaining..haha..but my travelling time takes longer than the lesson itself..

watched Flight Plan..I think it rocks..had me so freaked out..but it's not horror though =D

2005-11-01T23:11:00.000-08:00

I now have a fringe..my mom says it's ugly.. =( sob I feel so sad..but PLEASE..tell me it's nice okay..even if it sucks.. =D n I will be eternally grateful..

grow hair growwwwwwwwwwwwww............

n my frens dun have school tmr..BUT I HAVE..NO FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

typed on 23rd posted on 28th -_-

2005-10-28T14:11:00.000-07:00

I'm back from Korea! FINALLY..I am so so so glad to be back..*beams*

the trip sucked..big time..the weather sucked..the people sucked..the food sucked..

shucks..

right from the time I stepped into the airport..I wanted to go home so badly -_-"

couple of things tat happened during the trip..

I met Ms Agnes Tan..I met her at Changi Airport n I said hi to her..omg..same flight! wad a coincidence..met her again in Korea..O_O she tapped my shoulder n I jumped sky high..I mean..who will u expect to meet in Korea?? lol..

on the 2nd/3rd day I can't remember which..our bus tyre PUNCTURED..WOW..n Korea is fuge..so we finally reached our destination at..11 pm?!?! n had our dinner so late omg..luckily the bus had two rear wheels..we plodded along at..20km/h? sucked big time..

the Korean sales guy tried to pinch my mom's cheeks when she tried to bargain..duhhh..

almost didn't make it back to Singapore..my group had tis madass woman..at Incheon's Airport..she insisted some woman kicked her darned precious daughter.. -_- come on..airports are crowded..it was an accident..who will intentionally kick a 5 year old girl for no good reason? the madass den shouted n INSISTED on calling the POLICE..?!?! hellooo........when we boarded the plane..she still hadn't had enough..she saw the woman n she started shouting at her..right b4 takeoff..she did the same thing again..the stewardesses had to ask her to return to her seat..should have just kicked her off..

we had FOUR air turbulences during our flight back..I was so scared I thought I was going to die..

anyway the trip wasn't really very fantastic..although their scenery in autumn is really very pretty..their flowers were BEAUTIFUL..all sorts of colours..n the leaves..red..gold..wahhhh..

we visited the palace on the first day..their last Empress died so tragically! she was killed by Japanese assassins! when they invaded the palace..she was with her palace maids dressed as one of them..the assassins asked who was the Empress..nobody said a thing! so they examined their boobs cos the Empress had two kids so naturally her boobs will be saggier..they went around slashing ppls' chests n they finally found her..they raped her in front of the maids n then burnt her to death..HOW HORRIBLE RIGHT =( so poor thing..

we also went to the place where they filmed the show "Da Chang Jin"..it's actually a very small place..but the different camera angles which they shot made it appear big..the toilets there are just..GROSS..there is no flush n no sinks! EEEEEEEEEEEEE..one whiff n I almost KO-ed..

went to Yong Pyong Ski Resort on the next day..but due to the bus' flat tyre we reached very late n didn't see anything..

we also visited places where Bae Yong Jun filmed his shows..n they even kept the clothes which he wore..some crazy fans actually hugged the chair which he sat on n took photos with it..??!?!?!?! anyway..his pictures were pasted EVERYWHERE..cafes..optical shops..wherever they could use his face to gain publicity..

on the 4th day we went to the place where Korea kept all the treasures presented to them by ministers from different countries..there were items embellished with pearls..ivory..gold..lots..n NO..Singapore did not give them a merlion.. =PpP

shopped at Itaewon..tis place consists of all fake stuff..the entire road..all fake!

went to Myeungdong..Namdaemun..their clothes are really very nice..but cos it's autumn..not really suitable to buy..can't wear in Singapore also! saw a couple of very very nice earrings..but..very expensive! one pair..$51???? I can buy at Far East too! went to a few more shopping places..but they all sell the same things lah..so..nothing much..bought some hair clips..a belt..

n yeah..the food in Korea is VERY expensive..for every meal..we will spend AT LEAST $16! cos a cup of coke costs $5 over there..sob..n cos it's VERY VERY COLD..I kept feeling hungry..n they eat a lot of pork..in fact..we ate pork for almost every meal..their teppanyaki is very nice..but everyday is kinda OVER..overdose..

Korean shows are deceiving! over there..I didn't see ANY pretty girls or cute guys! n many ppl are just downright RUDE..only their sales ppl are VERY VERY polite..seriously amazing..they greet u when u enter n leave..HAPPILY..even if u don't buy anything..but most of the ppl on the streets..ELBOW their way through..it's crazy..n the Korean schoolgirls SCREAM over every single thing..my poor eardrums are still in the process of healing..

so on the whole..the trip was..okay..3 outta 5 stars? but I won't go there again really..no offence to their citizens..but I missed Singapore a lot when I was over there =D

2005-10-18T13:14:00.000-07:00

I'll be going to Korea in a few hours time until the 23rd! =( I dun wanna go!! *screams..

so many days without my dear is simply just....................saddening..gah..bleah dear..love u! miss u loads lah! my boy (he doesn't want me to call him tat =P) is worried tat I will get lost overseas but I reassured him tat I will come back cos I wanna whine n complain to him for the rest of my life..aha

n I'll miss my frens as well especially dearest Sumi n Lingling..*big hug* haha..but I guess I dunnit to tell them how much I love them cos they already know it =D whee! catch up with everyone when I'm back!

adios!

2005-10-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

I'm
a Ravenclaw!

hehe..not Hufflepuff! yay!

2005-10-06T07:50:00.000-07:00

OMGOMGOMGOMG RESULTS ARE OUT ALREADY! I COULDN'T SLEEP ALL NIGHT! AHHHHHHHH..I didn't get any Ds tis sem..but my mom is still sooooooooooo gonna kill me =/

Communication Issues A
Newswriting C+
Public Relations C+
Radio Production 2 B+
Web Design Applications C

Although I dunno why I only got a B+ for Radio..shucks..wad do I tell my mom???? =(

2005-10-05T15:09:00.000-07:00

many things have been happening lately..n I don't really feel like blogging cos I can't put down wad I feel exactly..so it's rather pointless..haiz..

firstly I miss my 2 lovelies Sam n Leeling who are currently in Taiwan..quick come back den we can go out together okie! =)

the hols are getting to be quite a drag..nothing much to do..I haven't felt very hyped up about anything lately..why ar? no interest in anything wadsoever..I don't even feel like shopping =/ weird..

sigh..

I wish something really nice will happen..going to Korea in less than 2 weeks..I don't wanna go..how how how?

2005-09-30T21:26:00.000-07:00

don't u feel that it's really hard to be human sometimes?

I should live alone..I knew it right from the start

2005-09-23T19:23:00.000-07:00

I've not been blogging..hehe..busy playing games..some asshole remembered my nickname when I was playing at LAN gaming centre n gave me a shock when he messaged me in maplestory..bloody shit..so perve..bleah..

off to play Gunz.. =D

hope everyone is enjoying their hols!

I'm Back!!!!

2005-09-12T13:41:00.000-07:00

*raindance warcry screams jumps around in joy* EEEEEEEEYAHOOOOOO! I GOT MY LAPTOP BACK! *waves pom poms* sooooooo happy..dunno how I survived without it for a week..

went to study with Nurul on er..Friday? we were supposed to be at Kallang Mac at 10..haha..but due to extreme pro-ness..I missed my stop..n I had to walk about 10 km..could feel n smell my slippers BURNING..

at Mac..some mat fell in love with our dear Nurul..n gave her his number..hahahaha..*sniggers..she was so traumatised she refused to let me go to the toilet.. "please Fel..dun do tis to me..please please please..."

after tat we took a bus to Suntec..since I already spent $94 the previous Wednesday on clothes..I didn't wanna spend anymore..so I was trying to walk through Suntec with my eyes closed..BUT....Nurul had to remind me of the new Surfbabe shop -_- damn..n there went all my self-control..I fell in love with the cutest little bag ever..man..tat Nurul is persuasive..I swear tat girl knows witchcraft lah..

I miss my dear again! haha though I've been seeing him for every single day I tink..but then again.. =PpP

Comm Issues exam tmr..barely started studying lahhhhhh..die....wish me luck okay.. =D

2005-09-06T18:21:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged in ages..if u really must know..it's cos..my laptop crashed..I feel so lost without it..gah..n my desktop spoiled tis morning..WOWNESS..it costs $145 to replace my laptop battery..n my harddisk has to be changed..DIE..everything GONE..whoohoo.. -_-

Newswriting was seriously a bitch..shall update further about how slutty the whole Newspaper project was when I get my laptop back..cya soon guys

Good luck for PR n Commiss exams!

2005-08-27T01:25:00.000-07:00

exhausting week..took cab twice tis week..BROKE..I just feel like quitting school at times..I haven't slept in 2 days????? godddd..curse all those projects..

I haven't been eating much..survived on ice-cream for the past week..all thanks to the Sweet Stix stall tat the 3 BA jokers opened -_-

I watched Drink Drank Drunk yesterday..Daniel Wu was hot..hee

back to work again..

Your Truly...........

randomness

2005-08-24T01:17:00.000-07:00

Lim Shu Xian Samantha regarding love n how she's going to stay single..
"I wanna look after my parents..n have flings"

haha there u have it..no more reputation..FLINGS Sam..F-L-I-N-G-S..

2005-08-22T21:46:00.000-07:00

I'm going to Korea! on the 18th of Oct until the 23rd..I dun even wanna go..I dun like to travel! weird huh..hee..mom dragged me outta bed at 8 am even though I slept very late tat day..went to the travel fair at Suntec City..oh man..the crowd..I HATE crowds seriously..there was tis fatttt boy running wild..kept stepping on my toes until I got pissed with him n told him off..to make things worse..even his mom was doing the same thing -_-

went to Tony Roma's after tat..had potato skins..mozzerella sticks..coleslaw..n honey baked ribs..WOWWWWWW..nice! =)

saw a superrrrrr cute lop eared rabbit at the pet store..it's seriously lovable =( love at first sight..$380..my oh my..how do I afford tat????

sigh..school is so screwed..my Newswriting..gone case..seriously behind time..n Creative Journal..wth..haven't started..50 entries by tis Friday..GLAM!!

dear sprained his ankle..he insists it's called a "HEROIC INJURY"..I'm more inclined to attribute it to clumsiness..hehe..spent today attending to his every whim n fancy =PpP accompanied him to the doctor..his foot is bandaged now =(

I need retail therapy! bleah..

tis sucky feeling..

2005-08-20T02:43:00.000-07:00

I can't explain it..but tis feeling is back again..n it's farking annoying..caught me unexpectedly..tis just sarks..it's upsetting..I didn't think such feelings will come back again to bug me..

HAIZ..why can't life be nice n uncomplicated..I'd give anything to be a nice furry dog sitting on ppl's laps n being pampered..n only worry about choosing the next strategic spot to poop..

FRAZZLED NERVES..

n I just dun like to talk about my problems..maybe to close friends..but sometimes..certain things just can't be said..argh so frustrating! feel so lethargic..I can't even summon up strength to get angry properly..I know I'm pissed..but my argument is half-hearted..I know wad I wanna say..but I just can't be bothered to open my mouth to argue..have any of u ever felt like tat? sigh..wad's wrong with me...............................

nvm everything is MY fucking fault..I already knew I should have kept my mouth SHUT n not talk about it..after all..I kept quiet about it for a few weeks..u had to force it outta me..THEN get pissed with me too..WOW..den dun ask next time lah duh..dot dot dot..

2005-08-19T00:46:00.000-07:00

Radio was nonsensical today..we totally spoke crap..Syed was Michael Jackson..I was some horny lesbian..n dunno wad..hilarious..wonder who to invite as my guest for the talkshow....... =(

went to town after school with my Web D group to take photographs of clothes..accessories..bags..n make up for our online magazine..we had quite a fun time..but some shops refused to let us take photos..but some were really very very nice though..tis woman called Alicia Tan did some makeover for Amruta..she looked really very good after tat..her make-up looked great! shall post photos here after I get them..saw many nice things..but I'm unfortunately very very broke..

1. New bag -- Absolut Vodka $25
2. 2 tops that I saw -- $50+
3. Accessories..lots n lots..

Damn I wish I were rich..

I feel very very annoyed right now..dunno why some ppl are just lidat..HAIZ..sarksssssss..humans are beyond evil..so much politics in school already..I can't stand it much longer..to tink it's gonna get worse when we start working..WTH..stressed big time

I really wonder why I look the same in every single picture

A girl called "It"

2005-08-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

To: Mom

- I can't recall the last time you smiled at me

- I can't remember when you ever gave me a word of encouragement

- You've never wished me Happy Birthday

- You whacked me with a pole in Primary 2 for failing Chinese spelling once..n came after me with a chopper for scoring 60+ for Chinese in Primary 3..

- You either call me "IT" or "SHE" or wadever as if I don't even exist

- I don't remember you speaking to me without shouting

- You've never bought me toys

- You've never asked me how I was feeling when I was sick. NEVER EVER. Instead..u scold me when I'm ill..as a result..I don't even tell u when I'm sick..I gotta go to other ppl's house to rest so that I won't faint

- You've never asked me how's my day..NOT EVEN ONCE

- I've never shared anything personal with you before. When I'm sad I smile. When I feel like dying inside I laugh. You've never noticed anything amiss. Either that or you never cared. All I do is hold back my tears and wait for the night so I can cry myself to sleep.

- You defend other ppl instead of me

- I remember when I was younger..I once cried..saying despite how u treat me..you're still my mother n I always hoped for your love..but guess wad..you told me you hate me instead..

- You weren't around for me when I was 5..a little kid waiting at the doorway of her godma's house everyday for her mom to come n visit her..u only visited me once a week..n sometimes not at all..

- Now you stand at the door to wait for me EVERYDAY..just to scream your lungs out at me..for wad goddamned reason..I have no idea..EVERYDAY

Mom..no words can describe my hatred for u..I hope u burn in hell for eternity..I won't forgive you..I WON'T

2005-08-15T00:40:00.000-07:00

wheeeee..I feel HAPPY today..yay! =)

was kinda sick tis morning..but my mom insisted I go to my grandma's house..just as well..I missed my grandparents loads! they really treat me like a princess! my grandma cooked all my fave food just cos I was going to visit..hee..thanks! I weighed myself..ALMOST DIED..cos I know I've put on weight..since I've been eating a lot recently..but nothing prepared me for tis horror..I've put on SEVEN KILOS..yeah u saw tat right..7 blardy blooming kilograms..)@&#^)@#&^@!!! DIE lah..I still thought maybe 2-3 kg..not so bad..wahhhhhhhhhh..cannot eat anymore..I weigh 45 now..used to be 38..OH NOOOOOO..

dear came down from his sanctuary at Bukit Gombak to meet me for dinner..kinda took me by surprise cos I thought he was just joking..sooooooo far! but it was nice lah =) hee..*bliss.. =PpP

ooh n I bought a necklace! really been pampering myself these days..nice!

2005-08-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

I can't describe how much I dislike u..u really spoil my day..whenever I see ur msg I feel sick..SICK..when I read ur emails I feel SICKER..can't u talk nicely..must u lace every single word with malice??? U disgust n repel me..wad the HELL is wrong with u stupid @#%^@_#*^_!!! shittttttt u lah go to hell..

anyway..Leeling! cheer up ok..everything is gonna be alright..

went on a shopping spree today..bought a tube..2 pairs of slippers..5 bracelets..n some earrings..total insanity..but I was happy while it lasted..

FUCK the rest of the day..

all I had today was 2 packs of fries n 2 cokes..my stomach hurts n I feel sick to the bone..sigh..

2005-08-13T01:08:00.000-07:00

I HATE to be called an Ah Lian..cos I am NOT one..no matter how I look..pet peeve..dun call me tat..makes me very very annoyed..just realised I have another one..I hate it when ppl ask me if I love my bf..duh??? whut a STUPID question..dun love then???? madness..

certain ppl in school are SO annoying..sigh..some !@%)!* keeps bossing everyone around..n another someone acts like she's queen of the damned universe n everyone should listen to her cos her word is THE LAW..hey dude..UP YOURS..stop bullying everyone

had a nice day with dear today..watched Wedding Crashers..it's hilarious..I was hooting away with laughter -_- we found a wallet n Visa Mini in the cinema after the show! some ppl can be so careless with their possessions! had a moodswingy moment when I snapped at him for dunno wad reason..so sorry!! thanks for being understanding =)

I still have no newsangle for Newswriting..n it's due tmr..OH NO..someone shoot me pls..dead meat

2005-08-11T23:45:00.000-07:00

I hate it when I feel nostalgic..makes me feel like shooting myself..wake up Fel!

seriously..I wish I were in Year 1..

*I miss going to Ginza Plaza with u guys for lunch..n hearing Debbie mistakenly call red bean cake "fish"..watching Sam pour vinegar into her porridge just cos Sarah mistook it for soy sauce

*I miss suanning Lirong about her beloved "Erniefysh" n drawing rubbish on her lecture notes

*I miss sitting next to u ppl in class..cracking lame jokes..just being myself without worrying..counting on u all to unselfishly bail me out whenever I'm speechless when the teacher calls on me

*I miss the days where there were much less politics in class..unlike Year 2 now..everyone is so suspicious of one another..haiiii

*I just miss all of u ppl loads..ur great company..n everything..

Sarah..Sam..Deb..Rong..thanks for everything..u've made Year 1 truly wonderful for me.. =)

2005-08-08T23:00:00.000-07:00

fuck lah okay. I came home..the bloody woman graced me with "THE LOOK" again..dunno wad I do to offend her lah seriously..after a while she started trying to tear down the door..OH MY GAWD..SOMEONE..show her the way to IMH pls..n she continued barking n barking away at me for no goddamned reason..since I'm already so pissed..it did nothing to improve my mood..n I told her to shutup..

due to today's fucked up weather..my eczema is back AGAIN..wow so happy..*applause*

2005-08-07T20:59:00.000-07:00

faway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
MAYBE

jfaway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
i shld call my problem

jfaway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
relaxing thursdays

jfaway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

_____*i <3 ` eugene ™ ; .: _____*forit’sallabout`youandonly`youmylove :.· says:
ur problem?

jfaway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
omg

jfaway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
program

_____*i <3 ` eugene ™ ; .: _____*forit’sallabout`youandonly`youmylove :.· says:
ROFL

_____*i <3 ` eugene ™ ; .: _____*forit’sallabout`youandonly`youmylove :.· says:
OMG SAM

_____*i <3 ` eugene ™ ; .: _____*forit’sallabout`youandonly`youmylove :.· says:
do listen to my problem!

_____*i <3 ` eugene ™ ; .: _____*forit’sallabout`youandonly`youmylove :.· says:
ULTIMATE CHILL PILL!

jfaway - ]] ..look for the turning, for something or nothing - i won't let go, cos i need you so. says:
omg

AHHAHAHAHAH!

2005-08-07T20:07:00.000-07:00

I'm bored..my bro is playing CS on the Xbox..so tempted to play..shall join him after I finish blogging..BUT..the stupid boy is playing with Wedding March as background music..I dunno if he's just trying to perverse or smth..but I know for sure it's grossing me out -_-

yesterday was spent as Suntec over the Monopoly Challenge..Ben..Dudley..Jason n dear wanted to take part..imagine..4 gangsters playing board games..duhhh..

dear n I had lunch first..den we walked around a bit..n ended up in the arcade..didn't want him to see me play..so undignified..so I disappeared for a "little while"..until he called me..he even thought I was playing Puzzle Bobble..truth is..I was stuck at the Marvel vs Capcom machine..my favourite la..after Baby Gem Fighters! soooooo cute!! hehe..see lah..no image no reputation..since when did girls go so crazy over computer games..wahhh..sometimes I tink my gender is confused.. =/

after tat the whole group arrived..den they went to play Monopoly..it was seriously funny watching them play..so nonsensical..lol..the star of yesterday was Dudley Ronald Duclos ("it's Duuuuu-klo not Duuuuu-klose" quote: Dudley Ronald Duclos, once upon a time, 2005)..better known as Tan Wan Jun's property =PpP..with some luck..a lot of shrewdness..n a large amount of practise..yes u saw tat correctly..PRACTISE MONOPOLY..lol..(until 7 am in the morning)..he managed to rake in 133k monopoloy dollars..which made him the 2nd highest scorer in the day..thus qualifying for the semifinals TODAY..haha..Wan Jun's reaction to him winning.."huh..tmr still must come back ah???" wahahaha..cute couple! wish him all the best for his game!

slept at 5+ in the morn..was woken up by my mom at 10..for dunno whut also.. -_- cleaned my room..yay..den proceeded to slack my afternoon away in a nice secluded kkkorner of my home..up till now..I haven't done anything..wheeeee..

had a nice dinner..Sambal Sotong..Crispy Cereal Prawns..Sambal Kangkong..Lemon Chicken..Fried Tofu..Black Pepper Crab..Pork Ribs as well as Egg Omelette..$70+ at some hawker centre in Tampines..yummilicious! n I'm STILL not full..

I hereby SWEAR tat I am/will/shall/MUST cut down on my food intake or drive myself into early bankruptcy..

I can n I WILL..hahahaha..CONTROL, I shall =D RESIST, I will..ok I am mad..*evil laughter*

look! fel-de-blardy-mophead..wheeeeeeeee..can tell I'm bored right.. =D

2005-08-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

reached school early today at 10.40..though my Radio shift was at 12.45! happened to meet Fadli at the bus stop..he had first shift starting at 11.15..he mentioned tat he hadn't typed in the comments for his songs..*THUNDER N LIGHTNING*..which reminded me..NEITHER DID I DO MINE..omg -_- so we decided to rush to class early to type it in..n off we went..it was raining by the way..treacherous journey..BUT..as Fadli walked at wad he termed as his "leisurely" speed..Fel had to run to keep up..so there u have it..imagine..for every ONE step tat he took..I was running like THREE steps..by the time we got to class..I was panting away n breathless..took 5 mins..instead of my usual 20 mins -_- my life shortened by 20 years already la!!! @#)%^@#)%^!# lol..

I passed Radio..miraculously..quite happy with myself..yay..thanks dear..Lirong..Samantha..for helping me..n answering my ridiculously paranoid questions last night n for being so supportive..

went to PS after dear finished his lessons..Pastamania..AGAIN O_O am so gonna grow thin man..WOW..discovered....*drumroll*....STRAWBERRY BAVARESE..it's served in a super small cup..$4..but v v nice..Strawberry slices..vanilla cream..whipped cream..cinnamon powder..YUMMY!!!!!

oh goody..I'm slacking away again today..whoohoo

seeing stars..*

2005-08-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

Web D: Creative Journal 50 entries, Website
PR: 15 page report
Newswriting: 8 page Campus Newspaper
IS: Website
Radio: Dalet test TOMORROW!!! fail fail

OMG I KNOW I'M SCREWED..HAHAHA..n I'm in Web D lesson..so obvious I'm not paying attention..damn..Felicia Tan..WHAT ARE U DOING!

2005-08-03T00:49:00.000-07:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeee........bursting with happiness..but I shall not annoy everyone even further with details..omg omg wheeeeeeee..my happiness rating shot to outer space already lahhhhh..

=) =D whoo!

Sweetness

2005-07-31T12:27:00.000-07:00

omgomgomgOMG no..NOOOOOOOOOOOOO..I cried when I looked at Clara's friendster..I just teared instantly..honestly I tink they're the sweetest couple! DAMN! so sweet! after all they've been through..I really really really wanna see them stay together until forever..WAHHHH..SWEEEEEEEET.. =) omg ok I know I'm super emo..laugh at me..nvm..haha..I feel happy now..whoo!

2005-07-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

I am done with Newswriting!!!! thanks to Sam who was a great great help!! =)

spent 3/4 of PR class trying very hard not to fall aslp..but..failed..

went town after class to meet my JC frens..Cheryl..Siling..n LIUUUUU ZHIMING..we went Sakae Sushi for the buffet..we had an entire stack of plates..n den we ordered too much..couldn't finish..we were busy stuffing sushi EVERYWHERE..into drink cans..even wrapping it up n dumping it into our bags..it was hilarious..we were busy telling one another stupid things n gossiping away..so much catching up to do..haven't met Siling n Zhiming since I left MJC..goshhhh..I missed all u guys so so so so much..the fun tat we had back in school!!! we all ate until we couldn't move..went to take neoprints after tat..den shopped around..bought a pair of earrings..tink it's kinda ex..$12.90 but oh well..I like it.. =D left around 7.30! the train ride home with them was funny as well..

yay today was a great great great day..I love my frens! must meet again soon!

I missed my dear today.. =( very much.....bleah!

Fucking bitch that I call "MOM"

2005-07-28T22:57:00.000-07:00

again again..one moment asking me how's her new haircut..next moment telling me to get myself killed outside..wad the hell lah bitch..still dare to ask why I don't respect u ar?? hahaha..how to respect u when u're screeching like a trapped hen every minute or so..

super childish lah please..can't u even act ur age..42 going on 6 lah..u act like a spoilt brat lah seriously..tink u're a small kid ar..kick pails around den we give in is it? lolx..MAD..

after screaming at me she went to scream at my dad..over some really stupid thing..den ask for a divorce..crazy shit lah u....

oh god..ur lack of patience n control makes me wanna laugh..still say the rest of us ain't human? wad does tat make u? really pity u lah..nutcase

2005-07-26T21:28:00.000-07:00

the stupid press conference tis morning has left me severely confused..wonder how am I going to come up with a news story for it..die..

I actually wore a SHIRT just to look formal..OMG lah so gross..heng I brought clothes to change..if not sure die..how to wear tat for the whole day..so uncomfortable..n I was wearing my retainers..I looked stupid ok..all day long I had comments tat I look like a kid..n I look like a chipmunk -_- oh my..tat's BAD manz..BAD!!! n on top of tat I wore heels..I can trip on my own feet..not to mention heels..so painful..my poor feet............

dear was late..he only got up when I called him..which was at..9.50 n the thingie starting in 10 mins..I got a shock..n apparently..so did he..stunned tat he got to school in 20 mins..haha..must be nv brush teeth nv bathe nv comb hair..just rush outta the house =PpP

missed Web today cos I was uploading songs for Radio..Rollercoaster by B*witched n Poison by Bardot..I'm so scared for the upcoming radio test =( sobx..I hate Radio..

I have so much homework..but I feel bored..I have no motivation to do my work at all..

Sam n I stopped by Bedok while on the way home to eat Chwee Kueh just now..had sudden craving for it..n we both had gigantic jugs of pineapple juice which Sam terms..the "GOBLET OF FIRE" -_- wahahaha..

I miss my dear so much.. =( tis sucks..

Pick-up lines

2005-07-24T16:03:00.000-07:00

corny pick-up lines! they just crack me up..

- I lost my number..can I have yours?
- Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
- Can I have directions to your heart?
- Is it hot in here or is it just you?
- There must be something wrong with my eyes. I just can't take them off you.
- That's a nice shirt..can I talk you out of it? (lol..WTF??)
- If you were a new humburger at McDonald's, you would be McGorgeous (-___-")
- Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again?
- Baby you must be a broom cos you just swept me off my feet (omg?)
- Are you religious? Because I am the answer to all your prayers! (hahahaha)
- If I followed you home would you keep me?
- Apart from being sexy, what do you do for a living?
- If you don't wanna have kids with me, then why don't we just practice? (lolx)

2005-07-24T12:38:00.000-07:00

just woke up not too long ago..GOODNESS! I've never woken up so late before..I'm alone at home..my parents keep calling..so annoying!!! the phone keeps ringing every 10 mins..grrrr..

oh my..Jolin's so pretty!!! =( I wanna look like her! she has gorgeous hair!! Elva also pretty! WAHHHHHH..SO CHIO SO CHIO!! darn darn darn..jealous! but then again..Chinese beauties can never compare to Caucasians..Angelina Jolie! HOT HOT HOT!!! n Brazilians..GISELE BUNDCHEN..omg..DREAM GIRL!!! okay I'm just about undergoing internal combustion now..

n I'm not les..seriously..

I'm bored..nobody is online to entertain me..I'm lazy to cook lunch for myself..hahaha..I feel like having steamboat =(

2005-07-23T23:12:00.000-07:00

woke up at 7 today..for some conference in school..supposed to meet the blur one at 930..somehow I dilly dallied till I was late..n reached Paya Lebar at 9.55! lol..oopsie..

we were on time though..the 2nd half of the conference was more interesting though..Theresa was funny..

after tat went Jurong Point with dear..cos he wanted to get a new phone..the service at Starhub there is bad I tell u..BAD BAD BAD!!! the dumb girl kept walking around..talking..felt like asking her to sit down lah..goshhhhh..dear got the Nokia 3230..haha..it's an outta-shape phone lorh =PpP my phone nicer!!! haha..

n his parents were around..lunch was soooooooooo stressful..couldn't eat properly..nervous..

around 5 we left tat dastardly shopping mall..super crowded dun like it..cos I needed to go to my godma's house..he accompanied me to the station..thanks dear!

took a cab from Toa Payoh station to my godma's condo..BUT when I reached..I found tat I forgot her unit number..so I couldn't take the lift..n the security guard refused to help me..n I also forgot her car number..which means he couldn't check..but he was SO MEAN..refused to lend me the telephone..kept asking me to leave..blah blah..EXCUSE ME BUSTER..DO I LOOK LIKE A TERRORIST TO U?!?!?! in the end I had to take a short walk to Shaw Plaza to use the public payphone..cos my family do not know tat my hp exists..gahhhhhhhhhhh

den my godma also..another one..says tat my language is uncouth n tat I should be more refined..just like her daughter..yeah yeah..she said I was vulgar when I used the word "bloody"..wow..so vulgar right..makes ur ears shrivel up..c'mon man..the only things I use in front of my family is "basket" n "hell" n "bloody" lah..hurhurs..n she had to say tat I wasted one year in JC..right in front of my mom..as if we don't already know tat..as if u dunno tat's a sore topic with her..well done manz woman..I salute u..ur daughter the best ok??? plus ur statement.."My Karen has been working for 10 years already"..ultimate la..but u gotta remember..she happens to be 10 years older than me??????? duhhhhhhhhhh..it's not tat I dislike my cousin..I like her..but do u have to keep comparing us like tat..it's irritating..just stay outta my way

feeling so exhausted now..

Annoyed

2005-07-23T00:57:00.000-07:00

if u tink I'm not good enough den just say so la..

moodswing moodswing everyday also moodswing..almost everyday of the damned month..sure for a few times I just let it be la..but it gets really retarded at times tat I also dunno how to make excuses for u..wad the HELL..everytime AP me for wad? when I make so much effort to be nice to u..I got moodswing I also nv take it out on u lah..reflect a little CAN OR NOT....nobody owes u a living lah..F it manz

u stupid woman lah..u threw away ur own things also MY fault is it?? why everything also blame me..crazy one leh..even blame me for the weather..U MAD IS IT???? I'm not the rainman okay..

I hate ppl who spoil my mood..UP YOURS LAH

fooking irritated..

my comp is so laggy..n blogger is screwy..wad the hell..I miss my boy..wish he was here with me now..

DAMN..effing bad mood..tink I ranted enough for today

2005-07-22T01:06:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry to everyone.

2005-07-20T22:18:00.000-07:00

spent the last 2 days holed in LAN-gaming centre at Bugis with my dear..I didn't play though..surprising..but then I haven't felt like gaming for quite a while..which is really weird cos I'm usually stuck to computer games..saw a couple of funny ppl..playing Para Para..unglam lah aiyo..tis guy was dancing..n his actions were so funny I was squealing with laughter lah..he put his hands above his head n roll..turn one round somemore..alamak! den after a while he started thrusting the lower half of his body.. O_O tis one ar..dunno how to describe liao lah..ROFL..HAHAHAHA...............den another guy was just flailing his arms all over the place..left right centre..no style at all..AIYO..Para Para should be banned lah..at least DDR isn't so bad..

had Newswriting today..Ms Chan was talking about Field Assignment 1..so scared I fail! AHHHHHH..Press conference next Tues..den the assignment is due on Fri..WAD IS TIS MANZ..

after tat I met Xiangrong in the atrium den we took a bus to town to meet Sam n Leeling..FINALLY! haven't gone out with them for ages..was resisting the urge to give them both a HUG..I MISSED U TWO!!!!! =) we went to Sakae Sushi at Borders n gorged ourselves..30 plates amongst the 4 of us..goshhhh..it was damned funny too..we were laughing away throughout..tink we made the most noise..even the waiters were amused lah..die..dun dare to show our face there again..

we walked around a bit..dunno but I felt v happy when they were around..but now I'm at home..mood a bit =/ I got stuck in the MRT just now..bleah..was a bit upset..yeah..I dislike it when it's crowded..I was really plastered against the door just now..n the guy in front of me was like twice my height..so I couldn't move or breathe..haiz..damned door..now painnnnnnnn liaoz..n it kinda shocked me too..

I got a pimple! oh no =( sobx..n I'm growing fat too..damn..

bloody chubby cheeks..DIE!

Randomness

2005-07-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

I. MISS. MY. DEAR.

though I just met him..three n a half hours ago..am I crazy or smth..

SCREWY HAIR..rebonding time!!!!

winnie the pooh n I..

pooh bear n I again..

FINALLY..I can allow myself to slack today..n not tink about homewor for a few hours..

2005-07-19T03:14:00.000-07:00

just finished my PR backgrounder..it's supposed to be 4 pages but I have 5 pages..n I've already edited it thrice! oh nooooooooo! today was a damned confusing day with many many destinations..

I feel so tired now..just found out there's newswriting tutorials =( which means Sam..Leeling n I have to cancel our Wed outing plans..how sad..sobxxxxxx! I feel tat I haven't had much fun tis hols..so much work! I still wanna play lahhhhh..haizzzzzz

more Samantah fun again..yes tat's how she spelled her name.. =PpP

[12:27:09 AM] sailed away : eh
[12:27:11 AM] sailed away : do u haf those kinda
[12:27:15 AM] sailed away : u knw in files
[12:27:20 AM] sailed away : those kinda hole things
[12:27:26 AM] _____*i <3 `: ??
[12:28:29 AM] sailed away : erms
[12:28:29 AM] sailed away : hahaha
[12:28:36 AM] sailed away : i draw

TA-DAH!!!

[12:30:23 AM] _____*i <3 `: -_- FASTENER LA!

hahahaha..anti-climax..diao.....rofl

2005-07-18T02:26:00.000-07:00

omg..my mom is mental..somebody help me..there is a DEVIL residing in my home..the bitch awoke from her sleep..n scolded me for doing my homework O_O she expects me to get ALL As WITHOUT doing my work..yeah tat's the way man..how ridiculous can it get..no words to describe la..BITCH..den I got agitated..cos she just ruined my mood for doing my work..n DEN she started on my father n started screaming n yelling like a GODDAMNED MAD SHREW about getting a divorce n stuff lidat..C'MON LA U MONSTER..u were SLEEPING..nobody stepped on ur tail..bloody MENTAL..check urself into Woodbridge n stop making everyone in the house suffer la..I really tink I'm going to lose it soon n just..)@*#%@)#%*

I wonder wad my dad ever saw in her..ppl pls open ur eyes when choosing a mate..u dun wanna get stuck with a monster at home..

just shut up n stop giving everyone in the house high blood pressure la..I look forward to the day where I can leave u in a ditch man..I'm never forgiving u..lousy mother..NEVER EVER

Sex & Intimacy

2005-07-17T10:37:00.000-07:00

I'm trying desperately to get started on my stupid PR backgrounder..I couldn't drag my sorry self outta bed to meet Wanjun n Amruta cos my stomach hurts n I can't move -_- I'm so sorry ladies!

somebody posted tis link on Shalyn's blog.. http://rockson.blogspot.com/ go take a look if u can..it really cracked me up..how crude can his language get..it's plain unglam n uncouth..Hokkien Ah Beng ah? really reflects his upbringing..seriously..vulgarities are fine but.."fuckyourmothercheebye lancheow KNNBCCB" O_O dotx......isn't tis a bit over??? yucks man..wanna scold also be more refined lah..is tis the best way to express wad u're trying to say..duhhhhhh..I wish he'd wake up..such language is so unsightly..polluting cyberspace only..

n so many sexual innuendos everywhere..wad..see girls as sex objects only is it??? bloody male chauvinist pig..

-"and she can put my ATM horse into her ATM machine"..
-"I don't like Durex condom, because never have my size, because my horse so big, hahahahahaha!!!! Wear their normal condom only cover my horse a bit only. Eh, I am not stupid ok? Seat belt must always wear, wait get the sex disease and my lan cheow fall off then no more shiok shiok fun fun liao "
- "My microphone only for girls to use one, hahahahahahaha!!!!!"
- "But got some girls totally cannot make it, but still wear bikini. This kind of fucked up standard face and body still wear bikini. Please lah, guy like to see the neh neh bounce in the bikini when the girl jump and dance. Don't want to see the thighs and the stomoch also bounce, ok? This kind of bounce see already will vomit. Woman got a bit of hamburger on the waist is good, but guy don't want Big Mac."

HURHURS..so unfunny la..wad's wrong with being fat? fat = not human is it? it's stupid to judge ppl by their looks la..if their character is bad den u slam tt's ok la..BUT U R JUST PLAIN MEAN..u tink they want to look like tat meh? FIRRITATING..everyone is beautiful u moron..

n who the heck wants someone who talks in tis manner..sex is for SHIOK SHIOK FUN FUN?????? ignorant brainless baboon lah! it is sacred..an expression of love..INTIMACY..for couples really in love to be closer to each other..for people who are really in love..LOVE LOVE L-O-V-E..KNOW WAD IS LOVE NOT!!!!!!! another 4-letter word besides FUCK..bloody dumbbell..rot in hell for saying such things..I feel so agitated now..absolutely dislike people who talk about sex in a degrading manner..GAHHHHHH!

WHAT IS LOVING INTIMACY
Loving intimacy is the social, emotional, spiritual and physical sharing of oneself with a partner in ways which create closeness, honest communications and communion. Intimacy involves the sharing of deep feeling (not necessarily verbal) through tactile and visual stimulation, using our bodies as well as spirits to comfort and pleasure one another.

if u can't get tis right in ur head den just SHUT UR MOUTH n stop spewing disgusting ideas around la..it's ppl like tat who turn the world into a gross place filled with filth..GRRRRR..

2005-07-16T23:16:00.000-07:00

I went to Marche at Suntec today for lunch with my mom..bro..n grandparents..they are such dears seriously..I love my grandparents..they are so cute! my grandpa was wearing a Billabong shirt la..seriously..ahha..

ate a hell lot..I had pork ribs..mashed potatoes with sausage..ham n cheese crepe..croissant..waffle with caramel banana n vanilla ice-cream..tiramisu..strawberry mousse..total bill came up to $132.. O_O was so full I couldn't move after tat..

I'm so dead..I haven't touched PR..n I'm feeling too sick to do anything right now..dumb stomach hurts..gahs..I HATE PR..

been reading Harry Potter for the whole afternoon..really exciting! if u haven't read it pls close tis page right now..

cost $40..it's much better than the 5th book I tink..some parts really unexpected it's really dark n though it sounds lame..I got kinda frightened reading it.. -_________- hehe =PpP I cried after finishing the book..why did Dumbledore have to die huh..killed by Snape somemore..n he's the Half-blood Prince? yuckssss..stupid Snape BASTARD! wad an ultimate insult to be killed by him..GROSS PLEASE..I wish I could rewrite the book for Rowling..I hate books where the good ppl die..I like happy endings!!!!!!!!! n in tis book..all of a sudden..love everywhere..I mean a few ppl only ok la..but suddenly..Harry likes Ginny..Hermione likes Ron..Fleur n Bill r getting married..Tonks likes Lupin..WAD THE..isn't tat kinda OVER???? too much to digest..the story kinda made me grouchy already.. Dumbledore come backkkkkkk! =(

I'm a big fan of Harry Potter la..though I prefer the book to the movies..read each book about 8 times?? manz the book is real saddening..ok I'm mad

Oh c'mon!

2005-07-15T10:41:00.000-07:00

yes mom..why do u insist on asking my frens about my life when I'm in the room right next to urs..it's just damned annoying..can't u even ask the right fren??? oh my god la..if u wanna know about my relationships why can't u just ask ME..I'd tell u..n some things DUN NEED to be said out loud..can't u see for urself??? I mean I always try to talk to u but u gimme the cold shoulder?? n u tell me u're not interested to know..*rolls eyes* YEAH RIGHT WOMAN..just wad is ur problem..u asking ur daughter about her life very malu-ating is it??? NONSENSE..just open ur eyes n see wad a great r/s I have with my grandmama..she's just like my buddy..if u wanted us to be like tis..den u should do smth about it..I can't be the only one putting in effort..WAKE UP WAKE UP..u're 42..do I have to teach u???

goshhhhhhhhhhhh..wad a test of patience

James 1:2-3

"Consider it pure joy my brothers when you face trials of many
kinds,because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance."

2005-07-14T18:22:00.000-07:00

I was chatting with my fren tis morning on MSN n tis topic came up..

I always believed tat there is someone for everybody..for my single frens out there..dun fret..u dun have to be gorgeous to be loved..u dun need to be rich..all u need to do is be urself..cos if the other person really loves u..they will accept u for whoever u are..so wad if u dun look like Miss Venezuela or Miss Brazil??? inner beauty is wad counts..u should know wad u're worth..u gotta love urself so tat others can love u alright?

*hey girl please don't feel inferior or anything..u're my fren..u're beautiful in my eyes =)

so it's a little late for new year resolutions but nvm..I shall stop being a sinner -_-

MY RESOLUTIONS

- I will be a good gf
- I will be a good fren
- I will not use vulgarities (not tat there is anything wrong with using vulgarities..but..I just wanna stop)
- I will curb my temper
- I will be a good citizen (sounds lame but nvm)
- I will stop being whiney, sensitive n clingy n I will stop irritating the shit outta myself n others
- I will tink b4 I speak n not hurt other ppl's feelings
- I will be nice, patient, understanding, kind, trusting etc
- I will NOT lose faith no matter wad happens
- I will not raise my voice
- I will not complain n be thankful for everything tat I have already
- I will talk things over calmly when the need arises
- I will not bitch (at least try my best not to..if I have nothing nice to say about someone I will be diplomatically QUIET)
- I WILL EXERCISEEEEE
- I will cut down on candy..chocolates..ice-cream..everything tat I love to eat

In other words..I wanna be a better person..in everyway tat's possible..please help me by pointing out to me anything about me tat u dun like n I will try my best to work on it..

obstacles are just a test of our faith..whether we will continue to believe or give up..no matter wad happens..I pray for wisdom..to keep on trusting God n to accept wadever he has planned for me..thank you Lord for everything

FUCK YOU

2005-07-14T04:00:00.000-07:00

omg sam's latest post made me cry..tat was so sweet of her..OMGOMG..I miss being in the same class as her!

no matter wad happens ok..we'll be frens foreverrrrr! n I mean it! although our frenship does have it's up n downs..we have minor disagreements..but..u know tis frenship is really special! it's smth tat I want it for life! =) it's frens like YOU tat keep me going..Sam I love u! thanks for being there whenever I need u!

smth just happened tat really really pissed me off..seriously..u're a conscienceless bastard..stop defaming me u disgusting pile of dunno-whut..u know u will go to hell for it??? n wad's ur problem? looks don't matter..even if u were the most good looking stud on tis planet..which u're not..ur character still freaking sucks..n I'm damned happy I'm not with u..u really did me a favour..BUZZ OFF..after all the things tat I did for u..u can bring urself to say such things..MY GOD..were u born without a soul????? I always loved u no matter wad u did in the past..since we're not together anymore..just let it pass..WHY THE HELL DO U HAVE TO SAY SUCH EFFING MEAN THINGS???????? which are so bloody untrue? n u know it's not the truth as well?? why can't u EVER BLAME URSELF?? blaming others for ur own shortcomings..u're really bloody PATHETIC..no wonder u dun have any frens..u were always putting me down..cos u're just plain jealous..becos when u're in trouble..NO ONE HELPS U =) u dun have a single real fren..n I'm not surprised given ur sucky character..n u drove away the first person who really cared for u..I nv asked for much..all I needed was ur LOVE..but NO..u refused to believe tat was enough for me..DAMN YOU..cheat me of my feelings for FOURTEEN MONTHS..even my frens hated u when we were together

now I'm damn happy with my boy..I wish u'd just BUTT OUT of my life n live ur lonely life by urself..I tried to help u..but u insist on being ungrateful..

FUCK OFF

I dedicate "Puke" by Eminem to u..it was written with ppl like YOU in mind..

2005-07-14T01:24:00.000-07:00

I love my dear lots!

I had a super nice day with my dear today..we went to Plaza Sing to catch Fantastic 4..I armed myself with an arsenal of food..cup corn..candy floss..biscuits..sweets..n dunno wad else..the thing is..my candy floss was in a TUB..A TUB..n I bloody hell finished it.. O_O

after tat we had dinner n walked over to the Esplanade where we had a fine time slacking n just talking about things in general..n the view is just absolutely breathtaking! =) I like such conversations..feels tat u get to know the other person better..Sam n I have such convos v often..haha..feels damn nice..Sam I miss u!

on the whole I had a really great day..I tink I'm really lucky..so many ppl are wonderful to me..I'm thankful for tat

2005-07-12T00:49:00.000-07:00

went to school for PR in the morning..discussed for a lil while..gossiped half the time..hee..Wanjun n Dudley asked me to have ice-cream..was near his place..called Sweet Stix I tink..super nice! best tasting ice-cream everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....damn I wish I lived there!

went to meet my grandma in town after tat..indulged in retail therapy!! =) bought a billabong jacket for $80, 4 sets of lingerie..a Roxy skirt for $60..a happy house make-up kit n a matching pencil case..so happy now..everything totalled to more than $300..dunno how also..whoo boy! I love the GSS manzzzzzzzz! puts everyone in a spending mood..

shucks I'm damn happy!

2005-07-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

I'm in school during the "holidays" at 7 am..to rush my stupid Newswriting assignment..in which I have NOTHING..it's due at 5pm..CRAP..wad have I been doing???

yesterday..went to meet dear at Orchard..haha..u were LATE..tsk tsk..went to do a couple of interviews..had Carbonara at Pastamania..damn I'm growing fattttttt..walked around a little..went to his house where we were SUPPOSED to do work..ended up playing comp games -_- hurhurs..

reached home at ten plus..gahs..why do u have to stay at the OTHER END of Singapore huh! =(

bathed n attempted to do my assignment..but I was so freaking hungry cos I didn't dare to eat with his father around..bleahhhhhh..searched for food..miraculously for ONCE..I felt tired n actually went to slp quite early..1+..boo..

inspiration pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............I'm so screwed..

*I love you =)

Stupid Newswriting!

2005-07-09T22:39:00.000-07:00

went to find interviews for Newswriting together with Sam today..

damn man..I had a good newsangle ok..but the CRAP WOMAN refused to answer me..damn it man..

so I have 12 interviews..but no newsangle..how GLAM is tat huh..my feet n back are aching now..walked the whole of suntec..city link..raffles city n bugis..OMGOMGOMGOMG save me someone

n I got annoyed today..

I feel so stressed..why can't tis assignment be scrapped..it's seriously making me old b4 my time la..I just wanna sit n relax for a few hours..sighhhhhhhh

god..n on top of all tat I miss him..how sucky can it get manz..ARGHHHH!

I need retail therapy n fast..either tat or a major dose of ice-cream right now..HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Happy! Happy! whoo!

2005-07-08T22:03:00.000-07:00

aha! I feel so happy today! I finished Web D!! YAYYYYYY..OMGOMGOMGOMG!! whoohoo! I survived! 2 weeks of hols HERE I COMEEEE! YAYYYYYYY!! I am going to ENJOY MYSELF manz..there are a few ppl I wanna thank for making my week bearable! I remember feeling so stressed at the start of the week becos of my assignments!

Sam:
For doing Web with me last Sunday for so many hours straight..I tink it was a really productive..you really helped me lots! I don't tink I would have been able to finish my assignment without your help! in fact I tink I owe u a lot la cos we always do work together..

Leeling:
For always being so supportive no many wad I do! U're so sweet always there to support Sam n I! U're always around to cheer us up! haha..I might not have told u tis..but ur smile really brightens up my day! =)

Kailin:
For going through Radio with me even though you were busy with ur Web! =) thanks!

n lastly..to my dear for being so nice n sweet to me! thanks for taking time to teach me Radio again n again..for being so encouraging when I was depressed n moody! u didn't even get annoyed when I was so slow in understanding wad u were saying..u've been really good to me lah! wad more can I ask for right..u're like my every dream come true..hee =PpP love u!

haha..I'm sorry if I sound like some super emo freak..but I just wanna let all these ppl know that I really appreciate u all..cos it's nice to know that u're not being taken for granted..I LOVE YOU ALL LARH!

wheeee! I'm feeling hyper despite the serious lack of slp! n I have PR lesson in an hour..I super dislike PR..damn..n my newswriting..NO ANGLE YET! haha..die I'm screwed up..but I am determined to survive it so I can go out n have fun..

yay!

2005-07-06T03:41:00.000-07:00

been too busy to blog lately! I'm once again neck deep in homework..I haven't even started on Newswriting..no angle..oh nooooooo..n my Web is seriously fugly..die larh..so many other things not done..Comm Issus presentation in like a few hours time..whoohoo..n I'm feeling hyper at tis hour..madness..must be due to the fact tat I had two ice creams today! 1 just a few mins ago -_- n a FUGE bowl of frosted cornflakes..recently started snacking in the middle of the night..damn! I'm consuming millions of calories per day..n right now I'm tinking of having Delifrance..wth is wrong with me! I put on weight already! 2 kg! weigh 40 kg now..FAT! oh damn..

I wanna do so many thing I dunno where to start! I wanna go arcade! I wanna go to the beach! Theme Park! sunshine! sand! wind! ahhhhhhhhhhh..haha..holidays be quick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss my frens! I dun even see them much in school! I miss my dear!!!!!!!

2005-07-02T01:14:00.000-07:00

it's amazing how friendships deteriorate so quickly..I still remember those days when we were together almost everyday..talking..laughing..just enjoying each other's company..I can't believe u actually said those things abt me after I helped u so much..u're just not worth bothering about anymore..

on another note..Cheryl! I'm glad to have a fren like u..although we didn't meet up much after I left MJC..I still remember the things u did for me! u nv turned me away when I was feeling low! stood up for me when Edith tried to be funny! still remember when I ran to ur house..u even lent my ur clothes..n the times we had sitting next to each other in EVERY LESSON! dreaming in Bio..copying tutorials in Maths..driving Ms Teo crazy in Chem..preening away in the toilet for hours n hours..haha those days were so fun..all those dumb school rules tat we broke together..ahhhhhhhhhhh I miss u! so glad we're gonna meet up soon! I love u Cheryl Poon!

I feel that this past week has been super blissful! sure there are minor glitches here n there (like homework)but I'm suuuuuuuuuuuper happy! hehehe..die larh..been eating a lot lately..I've had ice-creams EVERYDAY..more than 1 on certain days..packets of chocolates..sweets..gahs..gonna die of diabetes..WHOOOOOOOOOOO..

he* makes me super happy! aha..if tis goes on I will die of happiness seriously! eeeeeeeeee haha! I miss u!

I'm sooooooo broke! I spent next week's allowance! n I fell in love with some skirt from Flash n Splash! $60!!!!!!!!! omggggg..

haha nvm! BLISS BLISS BLISS BLISS! *SMILES..

damn I sound crazed! =PpP

Life's good =)

2005-06-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

Leeling n Sam stayed over at my house..we had lotsa fun together..just slacking n chilling together..it's nice not being alone in the wee hours of the night..to have a fren by ur side! den can just turn around n talk to one another so easily..haha so fun lah! Sam was watching Lost..hidden under my blankets on my bed..while Leeling n I were playing Literati..haha we were cheating la..but it was hilarious..we made so much noise I'm sure the ppl downstairs were cursing us to itty bitty pieces..

we went Pizza Hut for dinner on Sat.. =P finally..Sam n I had some royal craving for pizza for ages n ages..YAY! nice! our seating arrangement was even nicer! Sam n i sat opposite each other n made Leeling sit perpendicular to us..so she was facing the wall..ahahhahahahhaa........I slept at 10 am..while they slept earlier..so I woke at 1..had lunch at Delifrance..potato..yummilicious! I dunno why but I seem to eat more when I'm happy..YAY! I didn't have ice-cream today! ahhhhhh..withdrawal symptoms! HELP!

sooooooo happy I'm starting to annoy myself! but it's frens like Sam n Leeling tat make the world so nice! haha I love u two! *hugz* in fact we've been meeting like almost everyday for the past week..so nice so nice..my frens rock..I hate ppl who insult them..insult Sam n Leeling n u'll get it until year 2050! Tigger makes me extremely happy too! haha yay yay~~

my mom is back from Bangkok! like finally! she went without giving me extra money..WAH..$50 to last 7 days lorh.. O_O she came back with a fugly dress tat I refused to wear outta the house..one thing..it's RED n blue..two..it's more out than in I swear..shows more than it covers -_- n she bought many pairs of earrings to rival Sam's mom..who came back with 25 pairs..hehehe..I WANNA GO SHOPPING! but I needa save money to tame the tangled mess on my head first! =(

finished Comm Issues..like finally..took me forever to get a mere 500 words done..becoming a bimbo already larh..gotta do IS tmr! meeting Sam n gang at Orchard in the morning to ATTEMPT to get our other homework done..yeah~~~

OMG haha..HIMBO!

2005-06-26T07:22:00.000-07:00

Tx - tigger eeyore says:
tigger *gigglesss*
Tx - tigger eeyore says:
omg
Tx - tigger eeyore says:
damn

Tx - tigger eeyore says:
lol
Tx - tigger eeyore says:
giggle giggle

OMGOMGOMG.....*DIES

2005-06-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

haha..Leeling is such a bimbo =PpP she n Sam are at my house now..we went to Pizza Hut for dinner..on the way back in the bus.."Leeling press the bell!"

"HUH..WHERE'S THE BELL????"

*looks left looks right looks everywhere* -_-

haha..well done Leeling..

*clap clap*

haha..I miss Tigger!

Little monsters shouldn't be seen nor heard

2005-06-25T00:01:00.000-07:00

honestly..I nv had anything against u..until we went out a few times..I realised..tat u are UNBELIEVABLY RUDE..

yes we all understand tat u r YOUNG..n are 13..tat's why we give u some leeway..but there is simply no other way to say tis..U ARE FRIGGIN' ANNOYING..being young doesn't give u an excuse to behave like a spoilt brat..

calling Sam "money-minded" yesterday wasn't exactly very nice..after all we're not obligated to buy u movie tickets just becos of ur age are we??? u mean asking someone for ur money back is MONEY MINDED??? hello girl..u're the one who always goes out with a seemingly empty wallet..making others pay for u..WAKE UP!

calling Pam a bitch just becos she bumped into u is seriously screwed up..if Pam is a bitch wad does tat make u? Pam is one of the nicest ppl I've ever known becos I know if u ever make such a comment at me..I WILL KILL U..the fact tat u're still breathing now is proof tat Pam is nice enough..

not liking Manfred becos he's not the best-looking guy on earth is seriously LAME..hey childish..u're not exactly fantastic looking urself..the thing is..Manfred IS nice..we like him..u're so shallow u dun like him just cos he ain't the next Mr Beefcake???? call him names again just becos u dun like his face n I WILL SLAP U..it's a promise..

n Sam said ur hair is DRY not becos she wanted to criticise u..she just wanted to give u constructive comments..tat's wad frens do..it's a suggestion tat u should do smth about it..did u have to be so defensive n fire back at Sam??? pls..if Sam's hair is dry tat makes urs a BROOMSTICK..

Sam n I are pissed tat u hogged the mike at kbox..hello....all of us paid..we wanna sing..Sam n I shared a mike..can't u even share with Debbie instead of sitting there leaving Deb to rot by herself? must u be so selfish? every single song.."I WANNA SING I WANNA SING!" asking for a slap or asking for a slap????

n arguing with me over money..u really suck u know tat..I wouldn't argue with someone over $5 normally..but u're just so.......IRRITATING..

u know maybe u should stop with the whiny voice.."AYE NEVERRRRRRRR! AYEEEEEE NEVER!!!!!!!" yes pls stop it..it's so UNCUTE.. u said u weren't well-liked in sec school..we're starting to understand why..when a big group of ppl start to say tat u have a problem..maybe u should take some time to reflect..we can't all be wrong right..

it's not tat I wanna dislike u..u're just really unlikable..u'd be fine if u're not so rude..it really reflects badly on ur upbringing..U SHOULD APOLOGISE TO MANFRED
_____________________________________________________________________________________

on the whole I had a great day.. =) just got back from dinner with Sam n Pam..Cafe Cartel..ate 2 ice-creams today..am soooooooooo going to grow fat..Sam watched Initial D for the 3rd time already.. -_- hurhurs..

lotsa homework..should get started on Comm Issues already!

Another Wednesday

2005-06-23T00:05:00.000-07:00

I'm suffering from the effects from sleeping late almost everyday of this entire week..I'm now so stoned..I'm staring unblinkingly at the desktop screen..n my eyes look screwed..though they look screwed eveyrday la..

my day was kinda O_O lessons were seriously tiring..I ate sweets..like 4 packets to keep myself awake..if tis goes on I will die of diabetes..

went for dinner..if u consider tat dinner anyway..with Tigger..saw many funny characters..there was tis worker who was seriously moodswinging..he was throwing trays n everything..making so much noise..there was some OLD MAN who went.."I NEED TO USE THE BOY'S ROOM"..OMG HAHAHA..some guy making weird noises at the next table..some guy with a weird bike..haha laughed till I almost died..

was talking to Sam online..den she mentioned tat Terence said "stupid ppl do stupid things" when she told him about my piercing..pls lorh if u're reading tis Terence Tay..SHUT UP n DUN TALK TO ME anymore ok..if u use wadever limited brain power u have..u'd prolly realise u do far stupider things than I do..which are seriously retarded..like putting CDs at the car window to break..n things like Kimberly Gordon blah blah..mine is just a PIERCING..pls if u tink u're too fantastic n too glam den dun hang out with childish ppl like Sam n I who like idols like Jay Chou n Edison Chen..I know u're ur own greatest fan..like WHATEVER u know?

going to watch Initial D tmr! Edison! yay..

researching on Comm Issues now..my printer just decided to AP me..how great..

Radio tmr! I HATE RADIO!

2005-06-22T01:25:00.000-07:00

went airport tis morning..EDISON N JAY! at Tampines interchange..I saw Shalyn..but I wasn't sure if tat was her..den I was looking n looking..lolx..

stupid Sam was LATE..she asked Freddyboy n I not to be late..but she was late..haha..a few mins..but nonetheless..SAM U OWE ME! waited hours n hours n hours..Pam Mary-ann n Leeling came..

finally they arrived..ppl started screaming..tis annoying girl..whine n whine to her bf..they were so DAO ok! few secs..n they were GONE..but..we didn't count on Sam's fast reflexes..she got a cab at lightning speed..WE WERE FIRST AT THE HOTEL LAH! on the way there..we were next to their vans! EDISON LOOKED IN MY DIRECTION! den took me a while to realise who tat was..den I screamed..WAH HIS EYES ARE SO SO SO MAGNETIC..

den after tat..went to Orchard..Sam n the rest went to queue for red carpet..Leeling went Heeren with me..but she had to leave..I stupidly went to ask for navel piercing..$70!!! den I wanted to back out..but I paid already..Leeling had to leave! n tat Tigger came along..basket..all he did was laugh at me..n the worst part of the piercing..was when the woman was cleaning my navel..so ticklish..I kept giggling n couldn't stand still..SO STUPID!!! haha..I DUNNO WHY I PIERCE THERE FOR! DUMB DUMB DUMB!

den after tat..dunno wad I did also larh..navel hurt..couldn't walk properly..lolx..strolled around at about 1km/h..had ice cream! but I'm still craving for it now lah..went back to Lido to hunt for Leeling..couldn't find her..it was so crowded..hot..n I'm not exactly very tall..so I couldn't breathe properly..n got cranky..some AH BENGS in PINK used my head as an arm rest..I was soooooooo annoyed..I LEFT..managed to get myself home..miraculously..

anyhow did my PR..stoning away now..why must humans slp..I hate to slp

2005-06-19T23:26:00.000-07:00

-- > ^ // *FeLiciA \\ < == :+: :+: [[*_____duN pHuNk witH my ``hEarTx_____``**____*]] :+: :+: says:
ooooh

-- > ^ // *FeLiciA \\ < == :+: :+: [[*_____duN pHuNk witH my ``hEarTx_____``**____*]] :+: :+: says:
here comes ur boi

× MåÑƒ®ËÐ × >> [2 Days To Initial D] [Tou Wen Zi D] [Edison Chen] [Ryousuke Takahashi] says:
whooo

OMG haha I just love to embarass freddyboy n Sam..

guess wad..today was spent with Sam again..we were supposed to meet at 12 at the bus stop IN FRONT of her house..when I reached the bus stop..I called her..she was still slping..n she HUNG UP on me..THRICE..haha..thanks ar..

we went to Mac at East Coast..use their wireless n their power..hee..3rd week in a row I'm meeting tat girl during weekends already la..going out with her tmr..I tink I'm going to get a piercing..kinda bored with my appearance..n I dun wish to mess with my hair..

watched the Initial D trailer again..Edison Chen is so hot! haha..damn..Sam n I screamed while watching..

after that we were talking about frens..n I wanna say how glad I am again to have such wonderful frens! they really make my life so meaningful =)

Sam: I'm so glad we remain so close even though we are in different classes! She's always there for me n she's like the one person I share all my problems with! I'm so glad I came to poly n knew her! we wait for each other to finish after classes..talk online..go kbox..shopping..u're so perceptive n u gimme great advice! but I dunno why sometimes I just dun listen to u -_- so dumb right..lolx..she is my BESTIE! she worries about leaving me alone when I'm down..so sweet right......awwwwwww..haha..I can do silly things in front of her n vice versa n I dunnit to worry..I can be my same crappy self n she still talks to me! I hope we'll remain frens forever kk..I LOVE SAM!

Sarah: we're in different classes! n we seldom meet now! but I still remember all the nice things u do for everyone! Sarah is the sweetest n always has nice things to say about ppl..n she's always there with great advice whenever I'm sad..

Debbie: for being such a nice n affectionate fren! n for trying to cheer me up when I'm sad too

Lirong: for offering to go out with me when u know I'm down n I have no company!

Zhimei..Christine..Pearline..Priscilla..Wen Rui..Vanessa..Leeling..n all the rest of my wonderful frens la..I LOVE U PPL.. =) it's ppl like u all who make life great =D

Project Superstar

2005-06-19T01:02:00.000-07:00

× MåÑƒ®ËÐ × >> [3 Days To Initial D] [Tou Wen Zi D] [Edison Chen] [Ryousuke Takahashi] says:
hey ppls

drifting - ]] throwing knives at anne suzuki [一路向北] says:
yes

drifting - ]] throwing knives at anne suzuki [一路向北] says:
haha

drifting - ]] throwing knives at anne suzuki [一路向北] says:
wad hey ppls

× MåÑƒ®ËÐ × >> [3 Days To Initial D] [Tou Wen Zi D] [Edison Chen] [Ryousuke Takahashi] says:
ohhhh hahah

drifting - ]] throwing knives at anne suzuki [一路向北] says:
its hey superstars

hahahahahhaa..FINE..the idiot who is counting down to Initial D is MANFRED aka FREDDYBOY..n drifting is of cos..my girlfren Samantha..hahahahahaha wth

Happy Birthday!

2005-06-19T00:00:00.000-07:00

Kenny's birthday! Happy 19th! Have a rocking great day!

2005-06-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

I had a nice long entry but blogger decided to be funny with me..

n now I'm in a bad mood..becos someone is a serious FUCKER

damn bloody hell u tink I owe u is it..bloody fucking RUDE..WAD DID I DO TO U HUH..STEP ON UR DAMNED TAIl?

I hope u die..

BIG FAT THANKS!

2005-06-16T23:52:00.000-07:00

today is just one of those awful days tat are beyond crappy..sorry if I offended anyone today..becos..seriously..it just sucked big time..

1. I alighted at Clementi instead of Dover..guess wad I was doing..yeah big surprise..I was DREAMING.. -_- n cos I usually alight at Dover..I dinno wad bus to take..so I hopped on the first bus tat came along n prayed for the best..luckily for me..RIGHT BUS..lolx

2. Radio magazine programme due today..Arman's laptop DIED..along with our script inside..I almost died of shock..went around searching for charger..finally Kee Siang lent it to me! ah thanks boyyyyyyyy! u're a life saver..seriously seriously seriously! if not I'd prolly fail Radio!! THANKS KEE SIANG! yes Zi Xiang I'm sorry I called u so many times too while asking for a charger! Arman I'm so sorry too! cos I was so freaked out I cried outside KS n ZX's classroom..Arman was begging me not to cos he dinno wad to do..OMG SO SORRY EVERYONE..sigh..tat wasn't the end of my hellish day lor..in the lift..I had a headache..so I was holding my head..a stupid bunch of guys came in..saw..n started SINGING..in HOKKIEN

"headache..
stomachache..
ppl headache..
I heartache.."

WAD THE HECK RIGHT..I was already obviously very very upset..they really have no respect for other ppl..but Arman..who was in the lift with me..doesn't know Hokkien..so he din understand why my face suddenly became even blacker..

3. Back at the Radio studio..I was still super upset..I almost cried in front of Mr Felix Tan..GAHSSSSSSSSSSS..

today sucks big time..hope tmr gets better! going to have dinner with Sam Sam! wheeee!

GOH KEE SIANG thanks again! u're a great fren!

to tink I still looked so happy in the morning.. -_-

Monday Blues

2005-06-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

Feelings are really tiring..I dunno..I never regret loving..but sometimes..haiz..exhausting..I can feel so happy n so sad at times..

anyway I still can't figure out why guys are so afraid of commitment..not all..but I tink..90% of them are??? I mean wad's so difficult about it..I know all I want in a r/s is very simple..I just want someone who loves me like I love him..who treats me the same way that I treat him..n is faithful to me..just the basic la..n I'll be damned happy..doesn't need to be rich or super good-looking or anything..so wad's it with guys that makes them so hesitant about commitment???? n why some guys can't just be satisfied with one person?? I know it for myself that I'm a one person kinda girl..I won't look for someone else or seek company elsewhere when I'm attached..I tink ppl lidat SUCKS..n shoot by SHOT DEAD..I mean if they dun wan that to happen to them they shouldn't do stuff lidat too..

I'm getting agitated n sad as well..it's actually so simple..n love is such a beautiful thing..why do some ppl abuse it????

on a lighter note..look wad super glam Mass Commers do when they are bored..

Lim-Po-Po

"what big eyes u have grandma....."

wadever it was I had for lunch.......sure hurts now..

SWAMP THING

n being the owner of such crap spectacles..I have reached a new conclusion....

it's

time

to

get

new

spectacles

GLAM..FWAHAHAHA!

GO AWAY!

2005-06-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

Nobody said it was easy...no one ever said it would be this hard...take me back to the start says:
good nite, dear

WAD THE FUCK

he disappeared offline b4 I had the chance to tell him off..

FUCK

FUCK

I dun wanna swear..

but tis is..FUCKED UP

PISSED

since when was I ever his dear?!?!?!

I certainly DO NOT like him..

time to block ppl again..

DAMN IT..SPOIL MY DAY

Yesterday's Saturday!

2005-06-12T12:50:00.000-07:00

another Sunday afternoon..feels so stressful..my mom is stomping away like a wounded rhino..dunno why she always turns Sundays into a major workday..she should relax a little..

well..yesterday..Sam was late as I predicted..waited an hour plus for her..sat at the steps at Orchard MRT..super funny the things I saw..there was some joker..who decided to save time by jumping down the stairs..he stood at the top..went.."Oh SHITTTT" n he jumped down the entire flight of steps.. -_- ended up almost breaking his neck..the nutter..

n I met Priya's bf too..he was selling some ticket thingie..so he spoke to me..I said I was from MCM..he told me his name was Shan..he asked if I knew Priya..I started laughing n said he's her bf n dunno wad..should have seen the incredulous expression he gave me..hahaha.."HOW U KNOW!!" hee..but I was broke so I promised him I'd buy from him in school..lolx..

finally Sam came..we went to watch Mr and Mrs Smith at Lido..I love the show..it's nice! Brad Pitt..HOTHOTHOTHOT..n Sam went ballastic again as usual when she saw Initial D posters..she went gaga over Jay while I went nuts over Edison..WHOOHOO!

after tat we shopped around..went to Hereen to take neoprints..at the machine..there were a few ah bengs..wearing PINK..den one joker..eye got problem..he couldn't see tat there were ppl inside..he grabbed my shoulder through the curtain..den exclaimed to his frens very loudly tat there was someone inside..DUHHHHHH..n he didn't even have the courtesy to apologise..which made me furious..after Sam n I were done..I waited for him to go behind the curtains..n I rammed my bag at his backside..which was sticking out..stupid guys..

while we were out walking on the roads..guess who I saw! I saw our web teacher..MR SHAN! haha another Shan..I dunno wad possessed me also but I shouted his name.. O_O I tink I should plaster my mouth seriously..I have absolutely no control over it..

I bought 3 pairs of earrings at Far East for $12..feel so happy! pretty pretty..wheeee!

took a train n bus to my godma's house at Balestier after tat cos she had a BBQ..my cousins weren't around..super bored..so I called Zi Xiang n Sam to talk to me..haha..dunno wad I did but I slept at 5 am yesterday..

BOO..I'm feeling a little unwell now though..

2005-06-11T10:53:00.000-07:00

haha I'm supposed to watch a movie with Sam today..but I bet tat girl is still asleep..wah lau..she was late last week..tis week is my turn to be late la....lolx..I'm ready to go out..she hasn't replied me..BASKET..

I had a rather entertaining day yesterday..it started out quite bad though..blur as I always am..I left home happily..crossed the road..turned right..n saw him.. -_- n all the painful memories came flooding back again..GOD DAMN IT..n today is supposed to be our 15 month..BUT nvm..I'm over u..

reached school an hour earlier..slacked at the atrium..Sam left for class..Deb came along..she left for Newswriting while I left for Public Relations..not bad la the lesson..n tat was it..SCHOOL ENDED..lolx..

Sam had break..so we went SIM for lunch with Deb n Terence..lunch was super funny..I was kinda mean..looking at the ceiling n everywhere..but..haiya..dunno la huh..sometimes I just feel annoyed..

when we left some gang of guys asked for my number -_- of cos I said no..but they refused to take no for an answer.."Same school la..just be frens lahhhhhhh"..BOO..n bloody nice frens I have..they ran away n left me to DIE..haha..idiots lah..nv even save me..after I got over the initial shock at being stopped by so many ppl..I RAN OFF TOO..whoohoo..

n I decided to wait for Sam to finish class at 6..so I went to do Radio..wah seh I feel super extra..I dunno how to work Pro Tools..tink I can only do the written part of the assignment..Aisyah Shuling Arman!!! SORRY!!!!!!! =(

yeah something funny happened after tat too..but seriously it's not my fault right..I told u b4 I'd never like u even if I was single..I DID I DID! n I went to such extreme measures to avoid u..I even changed my phone number..not free lor..cost me $30..can't u tell..I never led u on..I TOLD U EXPLICITLY..NONONONONO!!! I don't mind being FRIENDS with u..FRIENDS..but u don't own me..I can do anything I want..DON'T GIVE ME TAT FACE..or I swear I will rearrange it for u..please act like a normal human being u childish bummmmmmmm!

*says a fervent prayer n hope god hears it*

`ahaha..I'm happy! weekend..WHOOHOO! no school but boy I miss u anyway! =P

Lamest, corniest, funniest convo ever..

2005-06-10T01:13:00.000-07:00

was just in a convo with Samantha n Debbie..we were talking normally..until Sam..random as usual..

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
wah lau why everyone slpy

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
haha

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
we slp too much

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
HAHA

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
and we are not strong like fel -_-

normal conversation right..SUDDENLY..

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
fel i dunno why u like to cross ur bra

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
it irritates me

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
haha as in the crossing

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
not u

WOW..wad a bombshell..tat's not all..

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
omg why u so random

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
sam u've been looking at my BRA

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
haha

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
-_-

so now we all know wad Sam has been doing during her free time..lol..

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
!!

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
u this cross bra

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
like no freedom

.*the best things in life aren't things*.*░*ÐÊßьle*░* says:
hahahaa

.*the best things in life aren't things*.*░*ÐÊßьle*░* says:
wht freedom do u want with ur bra???

here comes Debbie's SPECIALIST KNOWLEDGE on the topic of..brassieres.. -_- lol

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
HAHAHAHA OMG WTF

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
CANNOT STRETCH

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
adjust

.*the best things in life aren't things*.*░*ÐÊßьle*░* says:
HAHAHAHA

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
scared the bra strap break

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
-_-

Felicia - I'm a lesbian. I never regret loving. says:
wad rubbish

n finally here comes the CONCLUSION..

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
shld js use masking tape

drifting - ]] 也許頹廢也是另一種美 says:
masking tape free size

random right..AHHAHAHA..in hysterics now

2005-06-09T21:20:00.000-07:00

let's see..today I woke up feeling blue..cos I went to sleep with lotsa things on my mind..but my day got better la..haha..

reached school super early..lesson was at 11..was in school at 9+..slacked around by myself..until Lirong smsed me at 1045 asking me to call her if I was having break..n so I did..ended up sitting with her in the atrium until 1125..hehe..so smart right..rushed up the hill..ahha..on the way..saw Vanessa n Syed..haha they told me to go home..late for class liao -_- hurhurs.. =PpP no lor..Radio so slack..haha..when I reached..I forgot which door to go through..haha..cos all of them look the same..called Arman n asked him to save me..so he stuck his head outta the door n went.."Hi Fel..over here"..OMG..I feel so bloody lame now..haha..

wheeeeeee! ended class at 2..waited for Sam! haha die la..so unnatural our r/s..lolx..

smth Sam said made me tink..AM I REALLY TAT FUNNY..I mean I dun mean to be funny -_- ok wad am I saying..I mean I just say things..but it just never comes out the way I want it to..haha..fulla crap..not intentional..but ppl always laugh anyway -_- so I'm like some walking talking joke book..bleahhhhhh..

on the train home Sam dropped her laptop..but Fel with her lightning fast reflexes..hurhurs..caught the bloody thing..haha..but unfortunately..Sam didn't close her mouth in time..n emitted a loud swear word.."OH FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!" wahahaha..so unglam =P wheeeeeeeee!

anyway..I tink I dress like a slacker..please la..I wear jeans n tank top everyday..look at my coursemates huh..they dress so nicely..make-up..hair..everything..whoohoo..I just go to school looking like a mop..on the other hand my frens can just walk in to any hotel n be welcomed with open arms..I'll prolly be thrown outta such places faster than u can say "BOO"..okay on top of being unfunny I am random as well..

I still hate Radio..but I'm going to get an AD for it..whoohoo! yeah right..when hell freezes over..

feelings are complicated..n yes I'm co-dependant..bahs

2005-06-08T23:46:00.000-07:00

went to school with Sam tis morn..both of us were in school at 7.15 la..so clever right..we both sat in canteen 1 n ranted for 45 mins..n she decided to go for class..n smart Fel decided to see her to class..so laptop in end she walked Sam to class..after tat..Fel started dreaming n got lost in school -_- great year 2 huh..n took the longest possible route to class..n GUESS WAD..she was STILL EARLY..NOBODY was around..n since it was raining so heavily.. -_- crap..every wed must bring laptop..developing muscles already..

during web..Mr Shan saw me websmsing Sam..n on Windows Messenger as well..he went.."WOW".. -_- omg la..thank god I finished my work by then..lolx..had PR after tat..dun really know wad went on..tink I spent most of today in dream mode..

went for lunch at SIM with Wanjun n Amruta..gosh..saw the MOT guy -_- I tried to hide..bleah..rather unsuccessfully..didn't finish my food again..as usual..bleahz..

had Newswriting after tat..totally ridiculous..I bet I first the first quiz..AHHA..cos I din read the papers..LEADS was quite okay..will pass lah huh..

haven't really gone out for the whole week..wanna go out tis weekend..I miss kbox! but my gfs n I all have different timetables =( BOO..

I'm rather stressed over Radio also..my script is so screwed..how to present smth lidat on Radio Heatwave..puh-leaaaaaaaaaaase..n at the same time I dun wanna let my group members down also..sorry! I tried..but I just suck at it..

everyone seems rather depressed today..so many of my frens..well hope everyone feels fine tmr.. =)

have faith in the Lord n he will deliver..

GO AWAY

2005-06-07T21:51:00.000-07:00

super long day today..feeling rather stressed..I have so many things to do..so many things on my mind as well..

had fun Comm Issues lecture today..Brian Lee came in saying we were gonna have a quiz..everyone was cursing away..got out pen n paper..n he flashed the 'questions'..on his screen was..'FRIENDS'..he said..identify tat..n tat went on n on..Harry Potter..Spiderman..Lord of the Rings..TITANIC even..everyone was screaming away..n he started throwing snacks n crackers into the audience..even T-Shirts..finally there was tis OC thingie..Sam Olive Oyl screamed her lungs out.."Ohhhhhh-Seeeeeeeeee! OHhhhhhhhHHH-SeeEEEEEeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" tat a couple of ppl turned back to look at her..haha..whoohoo so dignified Sam Sam..

I still haven't bought my Creative Journal..I can't find anything about Urban Music for Radio..I haven't typed Comm Issues brainstorming ideas out..damn

n on top of tat..YOU are annoying ME..n YOU are annoying US..can't u just open ur eyes n ears n see tat I'm not very pleased with u..ur face annoys me..ur childish behaviour annoys me..ur pettiness..ur character..u r just......dots..I'm sorry la..but I told u b4..NO NO NO NO NO..not possible back then not possible NOW..in fact I told u very nicely last time..now u're back to anger me AGAIN..I DO NOT LIKE YOU..NO NO NO MEANS NO..wadever I do is NONE OF UR BUSINESS..I tink about the things u've said..I FEEL SICK..SICK

u should just shut up lah..ur attitude about everything SUCKS..u have no interest in school..DUN COME TO SCHOOL LA..wanna slp STAY AT HOME LA..pon school for lame reasons..dump ur frens in one corner..so insensitive..DINGDONG..come to school TALK BIG for wad..everything is SO EASY..how everything is OUTDATED..den go n ask the director for ur CERT RIGHT NOW LAH..how XR is not very man..PLEASE LA..do u own a mirror??? he's WAY better than u la..who are u to comment anyway..IDIOTIC..

**on a happier note..thanks for waiting so many hours for me =) u made my day

Stressed

2005-06-06T22:42:00.000-07:00

rather happy today..had a real short day..over at 11..went to find my ladies..went town..

did so many things..I'm poorer by $40+..bought 2 tops

after Arman came online n told me my part for Radio..I suddenly feel so screwed n stressed..URBAN MUSIC????? O_O omg la..I know nuts about it..DAMN..cue sheet n script..yes n since I wasn't around when they brainstormed n their group took me in with their charity..I had better do a good job..I dun wanna let them down..BOO..school ends at 6 tmr..damn..I have piano on Wed..doing interview on Thurs..OMG..screwed..

mehhhhhhhhhh..needa destress..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..I HATE RADIO I DO NOT WANT MY AH LIAN VOICE TO BE ON RADIO HEATWAVE SPARE ME SPARE ME SPARE ME JUST SHOOT ME PLEASE!

2005-06-05T23:13:00.000-07:00

spent the whole day online..haha..but I feel happy anyway..

if there's one thing I learnt about tis entire episode..it's that I'm worth much more than u say I am..u're the brainless one

ending early tmr..going out with my beloved frens..whoohoo!

*u make me happy =)

2005-06-04T23:27:00.000-07:00

woke up early tis morning! around 7+..surfed the net a bit..left home at 11 to meet Sam at 12 at Somerset..at 1140..when I told her I reached Raffles Place..she smsed.."OMG I'm at my house bus stop lei"..LOL..dumb girl..

we had lots of fun today..when she FINALLY reached..we went LJS for lunch..walked over to Far East to shop..bought a pair of jeans..I didn't really like it..but the woman made me try so many pairs I feel pai seh if I nv buy! saw Keshia n Charlie! bought a top too..

Sam n I went a bit mad..we took neoprints! eh turned out nice..for once okay..so we decided to go Hereen to take more..we had so much fun taking the pics la..lesbian poses..ahha..decorating the pics also so fun..OH MANZ..we wanna go kbox! didn't go for about 2 months? WITHDRAWAL SYMPTONS already..

after tat we went for dinner..Cafe Cartel..shared lagsane n garlic bread..the mad girl la..haha..order so much..she saw her fren Irene..who told her a certain someone -_- was in Cine..so she dragged me off..after a full meal..up n down escalators on a wild goose chase..SYLVESTER SIM..lolx

hahahaha..very happy today..dun feel like blogging! I got lots of things I wanna say..HAHAHAHA..but..lazy la! whoohoo! hope everyday is like tat..

2005-06-04T01:43:00.000-07:00

drifting - ]] what is going on says:
let's be cool like that yo

OMG..haha..I can't believe Sam said tat..neither can she..lol

happier day..FINALLY

2005-06-04T01:29:00.000-07:00

hehe..my day wasn't tat bad today..hey I was prepared for my PR lesson! first time in my life..I actually spoke up -_- haha so exciting eh..finished school at..1230 -_- didn't wanna go home n stare at the walls or take the long train ride home alone..so I decided to wait for Sam..who finishes at 6..yes SIX O CLOCK..haha I'm nuts right..

sat at the atrium..basket..tis guy promoting some BANK saw I was sitting alone..so he charged straight at me n sat down b4 I could run away..he got GELLED CENTRE-PARTING omg pls..started talking about BANKS n INTEREST RATES..n PERCENTAGE INTEREST..pls..if I could do such stuff I wouldn't have chosen MASS COMM I'd be in ACCOUNTING..yeah so he was basically giving me a big fat headache..LUCKILY my frens came along n I msged them to ask them to come n SAVE ME..so they came n stood behind me n GLARED the joker away..hahahaha..n he asked me to fill in the form..I gave phony number =PpP so dumb la..how many bank accounts do they want me to have..no money to put inside also larhhhhhhhh..

yakked on the phone with Zhimei for around 2 hours..haha so fun la..charging my phone in atrium somemore =PpP Cheryl msged me to ask how I was after reading my previous entries..haha..I'm lucky to have such nice frens..I have Sam (Olive), Sarah, Lirong, Cheryl, Debbie, Zhimei, Vanessa..haha..everyone is nice to me la..haha..if I left anyone out..sorry! but I love u all the same =D

going shopping with my lesbian partner Sam tmr..haha I love the girl to bits =)

2005-06-02T20:29:00.000-07:00

annoying..I've been DREAMING..today I almost didn't get off the train at Dover..next I walked one round around the convention centre..instead of walking up the hill for Radio lesson..wad am I doing?! den last night..I took a cab home from Tampines MRT..I was so busy tinking I forgot to ask the driver to stop..dots..OMG WAKE UP FEL!

my frens n I have started waiting around for each other everyday..n Deb n I have been spending so much quality time together we agreed we might as well become lesbians..

went Bugis with Deb just now to buy his present..couldn't find wad I had in mind..going town on Monday with the gang..hope I can find it..if not maybe I'll order..but Sam says it's much much more expensive..but I dunno if he will like it..

My heart isn't intact

2005-06-01T21:03:00.000-07:00

I found some girl's hp in the toilet n I called her fren to return it to her..I'm a good girl right..lolx

my frens have asked me to occupy myself so I will stop tinking about u..some have asked me to go on dates..but the thing is..I don't really wanna do so..but..u haven't seem to have wasted any time at all..though it's been less than 2 weeks..u've already started asking ppl out on one-to-one basis..it just hurts so much to know tat u're even asking other girls out besides me ONE-TO-ONE..sigh..n one of the reasons u gave me was tat u're too busy n u won't have time for me..yeah sure..NO TIME..sure..u come home late like all the time..play billiards after school..watch movies with others..u don't have time..

joke of the century..

if u were actually busying urself with work it wouldn't hurt so much..

but u're not..

n it saddens me to know tat I still love u as much..just like before..

why must love come with so much pain?

can't everyone just be happy together?

Can't Get You Outta My Head

2005-06-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

I'm in school now..feeling blue again as usual..lesson's supposed to start at..8..there are..5 ppl in class..WOW..

I just wanna go home..I keep tinkin about the things u said..it still hurts as if u just said it a while ago..still can't believe it..

I still remember not too long ago when some of my frens were telling me tat it recently happened to them..I thought I was so lucky becos I just couldn't imagine u behaving like tis..I guess I was wrong huh..lol

wth..if I keep tinking about it I will go mad..but then again..I just want u to be happy I guess..

it meant nothing to u I suppose..so why am I still feeling so miserable tinking about u..gah..

if only I could just push u outta my mind for 5 mins..FIVE VERY NICE MINS N I WOULD BE VERY HAPPY BECOS I CAN'T GET U OUTTA MY BLOODY MIND

haiyerhhhhhhhhh..how can something be so nice one minute and be so horrid another..

Disbelief

2005-05-31T21:55:00.000-07:00

I'm going on a long long vacation to get my heart back.

When I sleep I wake up feeling like I haven't rested. When the sun shines I still feel cold. I seem to have lost my ability to feel. I've lost my soul. My purpose. I go to school but I don't listen. I drag myself home. Everything is so mundane. Life's not worth living anymore. Same old thing everyday. I used to rush home just to meet u. Where I knew I could find joy after a long day..I tried to make u happy..but sadly u didn't tink so..

Then here comes this line..

"YOU MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE." Wow. That was so nice..hit me just like a punch in the eye..when the person who's supposed to have loved u n whom u still love says such things to u..nothing will surprise anymore..that really hurt..really..really..beyond description..

NOTHING HAS EVER HURT AS BADLY BEFORE.

I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT.

I PRAY THAT U COME TO UR SENSES SOON N STOP HURTING THE ONE WHO LOVES U.

BUT I STILL WON'T REGRET LOVING YOU.

2005-05-30T22:10:00.000-07:00

I dragged myself outta bed tis morning..guess wad..at 6+ lidat..at the lift landing..I coughed..n dear old puppy heard me..he woofed at me..sigh..sometimes things can't be what we wish they were..

had crap lesson..so dumb..I ended like..at 11? dear old Sam came down early though her class started at 1 to accompany me n take my mind off things..b4 she came..I spoke to Lirong..she ended class at 9.30 la..den she went town..she also offered to accompany me though she was gonna meet her bf for lunch later.. =) so nice la..but nvm..

becos I've not been feeling so good lately..I realised I din wanna take the train ride from Dover to Tampines alone..so I waited in school for Sam to end class at 5..Sarah n Deb tried to cheer me up too..

after they ended..we went to town for a while..didn't really know wad we were doing..all of us were kinda depressed..just dragging our feet around town..went home after a short while..didn't really do anything la..felt so exhausted I wanted to take a cab home..but I decided to save the money to treat myself to the Roxy bag which I've been eyeing for such a long long time..

I still feel blue though..

=( haiz..

2005-05-29T22:38:00.000-07:00

I feel so damn sad now..I can't even put it down in words properly..why is everyone happy except me? I'm not upset tat my frens are happy..it's just..why can't I be as happy as them? Don't I deserve some happiness in my life too? God please don't do this to me..

-Dear Lord, I need your guidance desperately..teach me to be wiser..grant me wisdom so tat I won't lose faith no matter how rough things get..tat I will always continue to believe in you becos I know you have plans for me-

Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

2005-05-28T21:09:00.000-07:00

God gave me a wondrous gift. But I didn't know how to treasure it until it was too late.

-All I wanted was you. Is that so hard to believe?-

2005-05-28T01:38:00.000-07:00

I wanna hold u again
I wanna hear ur voice in my ear
I wanna have ur hug, telling me everything's ok
I wanna love without holding back
Wanna have u by my side

-But.......I know........I can't do these things ever again....I miss u n I need u here with me-

Despite all the things that have been said..ah it doesn't matter la..I won't regret loving..no room for harsh words..cherish the memories too much =) n I hope u'll always be happy though I wish I could be the one to put a smile on ur face

even now I'm wondering wad u're doing..

Haiz..

2005-05-27T21:08:00.000-07:00

school is really really sucky. life is the same as well. to top it off I'm really sick..damn it lah..it just doesn't feel right anymore after we changed classes..it's really different without my old friends..in fact the only thing I look forward to is for breaks where I can meet up with Sam n Deb n Sarah n Lirong..n our timetables are totally different..how sad can it get la..n my timetable is quite slack but I have nothing to do since my frens all end so super late..

haiz..my grandma has gone to Mongolia for the week..

I wish my world will right itself again..everything seems so horribly wrong now n nothing is going right..gonna have a breakdown soon..totally stressed..I hate school I hate life I hate everything..

had a nice long chat with Debbie just now..about many things..such as life..religion..relationships..school..I felt better after talking to her..but after she left..the sucky feeling just came back again..u know the feeling when ur heart just feels like lead..n there's nothing to look forward to at the end of the day? I mean it's really so meaningless..I don't even like school anymore..my days are empty and my nights are neverending..

haiya..save me from tis torture..

2005-05-27T01:22:00.000-07:00

haiz. how does a person expect u to show that u can change when they refuse to even give u time to show that u really can?

if u're so quick to judge..ppl will judge u similarly..

everyone deserves chances right..

I was so happy just now..yet at tis instant..I've nv felt more lost n alone..

n when u tell somebody ur background..how can they use it against u? can u imagine if u were in my shoes?

sigh..

maybe we'll see next time la..

I can do anything I set my mind to..even if u dun believe me now..u might in future..nvm..u just wanted me to be a better person..

2005-05-26T17:05:00.000-07:00

just had a short nap..school is awful my frens n I r depressed nothing seems to be going right..but thankfully my frens r a really great bunch of ppl n we try to stick to one another as much as we can..my head hurts too much to blog much right now..

haiz..falling sick..to top it off I got sore eye..n missed Radio Class..FIRST LESSON..oh damn..should find Mr Yoka n ask him to let me join tmr's lesson..

I still have piano in 55 mins..DAMN

2005-05-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

School sucks..Life sucks..ah god..

School reopens!

2005-05-24T20:03:00.000-07:00

couldn't sleep last night..woke up damn early tis morning..at 6 am..met Sam at 830 at Paya Lebar to take the train to school together..the first thing I said to her was "I look like a lesbian". -_- lol..n since neither Sam nor I printed our timetables..we both..sorta got lost..HAHA..we're like recipe for disaster..lousy year 2s..hee..in the end I called Mavis..

Debbie blur as usual..couldn't find the place though she called me TWICE..haha! =PpP n she couldn't recognise me when she came..she looked right past me though I was looking at her ok.. -_- haha..ok I admit I look diff when I tie my hair..BUT STILL..DEBBIE! we've been frens for A WHOLE YEAR! n the last time we saw each other was only LAST FRIDAY!!!!

Newswriting teacher seems really fierce =( but still I rather write than do speech comm..it was torture last sem manz..had hours after hours of lectures today..was quite good as the 5 girlies were sitting together..wheeeeee..however we have TWO exams tis sem compared to 1 only for the previous year..darn..but nvm..tink our modules tis sem rock! Radio..Web Design..Comm Issues..Newswriting..PR..WHOOHOO! actually I can't imagine how ppl take courses like Accounting! I tink I will just die since I'm not a Maths person..but seriously..wouldn't anyone prefer messing around with radio mixers compared to practising Maths? omg..n our lab sessions..all we have to do is TALK..while engine students are slogging away! haha..n Comm Issues..hey we have lessons on PORNOGRAPHY la..obscene though it is I still tink it's infinitely better than doing FA papers..but well..diff ppl have diff interests! haha..Mass Comm sounds so damn glam eh..lol..I WAS KIDDING..it has lotsa bullcrap too..

gotta bring lappie to school tmr..DAMN..it's like..3 bloody kg..DIE JUST DIE..

overall it was okay la..

yay first 2 hours tmr cancelled..whoohoo! Sam's too! means she has to travel all the way for a 1-hour lesson tmr..HEH HEH..

2005-05-23T21:11:00.000-07:00

It hurts to smile when u feel like u're dying inside. says:
type / signout join together n try
It hurts to smile when u feel like u're dying inside. says:
smth cute happens

AT THIS POINT SAM GOES OFFLINE..SHE SIGNS BACK IN A MIN LATER..LOL SHE FELL FOR IT I CAN'T BELIEVE IT..HOOK LINE N SINKER! HEHEHEHE..If u still dunno I'm the 'it hurts' n Sam's the 'VROOM VROOM'

drifting - ]] 周杰倫 * VROOM to Initial D says:
wtf
drifting - ]] 周杰倫 * VROOM to Initial D says:
-_-
It hurts to smile when u feel like u're dying inside. says:
HAHAHAHA
drifting - ]] 周杰倫 * VROOM to Initial D says:
eat shit
It hurts to smile when u feel like u're dying inside. says:
HAHAHAHHHAHHA

2005-05-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

just drop dead fel. n nobody would give a damn anyway. or just disappear to ur Oklahoma Uni n come back with a piano pedagogy as a world famous conductor or smth. Maybe ppl will bother abt u then.

*growls* am having serious moodswings. thought I was ok. apparently not. was fine a few mins ago. maybe I'm psycho. HAHA

2005-05-22T18:42:00.000-07:00

everyone's out! I'm alone at home with absolutely nothing to do..nobody's online..was blog hopping when I chanced upon tis blog..THE GIRL HAS THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS ME! SAME YEAR TOO! omg la so cool..got a shock when I realised she's pregnant..as first when I looked at her blog there was HAPPILY MARRIED there..I tot it wasn't serious cos ppl but tis kinda stuff all the time..BUT SHE'S PREGNANT..OMG LA..she's 18+?!?! EEEEEEEW..omg I wouldn't wanna be pregnant NOW..I tink tat's probably why she's married anyway but HEY..at least the guy had the decency to do the right thing..

hope I will be as lucky as her in the future! who knows wad will happen next time! I mean I dun even know wad's gonna happen tmr..anyone of us could just die all of a sudden..so if I dun have a chance to say tis in person..Sarah..Sam..Lirong..Deb..Pris..Pearline..Cheryl..Siling..Ashley..n all the rest of my frens la I love you all k! =)

2005-05-22T12:43:00.000-07:00

How do u put tis feeling into words?

Hollow.
Shocked.
Speechless.
Numb.

Dunno la. Nothing seems appropriate.

2005-05-21T11:12:00.000-07:00

whoohoo my timetable rocks..

Mon: 8-12

Tues: 10-6

Wed: 8-3

Thurs: 8-2

Fri:11-1

YAYYYYYYYYYYY..but thurs back to back lessons no break..the pumpkins were saying tat there might be last min changes to the timetable..NO WAY OKAY..I happen to love mine..CHANGE IT N I WILL BURN NP DOWN!

2005-05-20T21:35:00.000-07:00

WHOOHOO! am so happy! my msn bailed out on me for the whole of yesterday n tis morning..was half dead..SO BORED! I even uninstalled n downloaded again..STILL CANNOT! Tried so many times! n now I just tried..CAN ALREADY! dunno wad's the problem really..my msn is as cranky as me!

towned with my ladies just now! but one lirie missing..she went for cruise with her beloved pokpok..didn't do much..but it was nice meeting up with them after so long..as usual Sam did lotsa funny things..like getting her fingers stained with red ink..it looked like blood..going nutters over Initial D poster..Mary-ann came along..we all went to take neoprints together..I look like shit..the rest looked nice..

anyway I really hate my name..thanks to my mom..she shouts it about 20-30 times a day..I just feel like groaning whenever I hear it..she goes..FERRRRRR--LIIIIIIII--SHERRRRRRRR--AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..I tink the whole block knows my name already..

feel so sian..got nothing to do! my brother gives mini piano concerts everynight I can't even hear myself speak..FELIX TAN STOP IT!

EDISON CHEN IS WAY HOT MANZ..WHOOHOO!